Oceans of Wisdom

and I can't run at that gear forever

and though that was a bit of an overclocking gear

but I did learn something about myself that even though I am a quite good CEO at a decent size scale, who does a lot of things very quickly, I did discover there is one more gear available to me that was previously never used

and so no new realizations about the world view per se

and I am trying to put the pieces together

a world model in my head

like I have a "vision" or whatever "view" of what the world will be like in the future

at a very abstract level

are all internally consistent

my public and private communications and actions

if we ever end up discussing it, you will say "oh, that makes perfect sense"

the theory of the thing and the theory of this are mirror images

well, it is interesting

where it is all intangible

which is about the polar opposite of here

it had a lot of physicality

maybe someday you will know, we will see but all I can say is August to October was my physical world, "Elon Musk with fewer 0s" moment

otherwise they are all in my head but jumbled

but a thread I dunno I crank it out in 90 to 120 minutes but it is not the time per se but I need to be sufficiently zen or whatever for the thoughts to come out coherent

send emails, given instructions, give calls etc

like what I am trying to say even after the most extreme period was over, I was a bit too ADHDed to write a thread

was still amped up

and for a few weeks, I was outside of extreme "doing" but my brain had not caught up

for 3 months it was all "DOING"

but my brain returning to a more balanced "thinking" vs "doing state"

which are still high

is mostly not about hours worked

so what I am saying about "getting back to normal"

but under "Elon Musk" type conditions, I can send emails and give instructions but "let's clarify the success metrics of a network state", well it feels hard

well, I can do it under conditions where most people would freak out

writing, thinking about blockchains, etc, etc

that at a certain level of hyper-extreme Elon Musk type stress (it was Elon Musk in a factory type vibe), I get wired "operational" and not "writing"

thing I have learned

and it is very interesting

so I am progressively returning to normalcy mentally from that extraordinarily stressful period

so I am going to answer a question asked by @[hexum] in twitter chat - why have I been absent - 6D chess to see if people would step up or other reasons? The answer is a bit of both: 1/ It is very important that people do things without me. Generally that only happens when I am less active in an area 2/ But also as I noted before, from August 2025 to early Nov 2025 was the "do or die" period for something else (my other big project) that I have been working on since 2015! And it hit a point that if I did not personally roll up my sleeves 7 days/week, it was going to die, but I did it and it "do-ed"

LOL

wow, excellent ideas

also good

also good

this is very good

yes, this is good

it is time to clean up

this is project december

if you are not a long-time insider

it remains totally baffling what you are supposed to do anywhere on this website

to answer the simple question above

though not tonight

I will read and catch up

just found this group